Today's check in
b/p 120/78. Higher than normal, but only because it skyrocketed last night. The back story is that I have a son who is an addict. Currently he's traded drugs for a toxic relationship. (she is pregnant with her drug dealer's baby and he gave up an excellent job and his sobriety to work in a chicken house and take care of her while she stays home. Baby daddy doesn't plan to contribute) Said son called to complain to and about us, and though I didn't actually talk to him I could hear him over the phone and it was upsetting to say the least. b/p was 163/95 last night. I'm happy it has dropped. I think the clean eating helped as did meditation and reminding myself
- I Didn't Cause It
- I Can't Control It
- I Can't Cure It
For a long time I didn't say much publicly about his problem, but I don't feel the need to be ashamed anymore. I have 4 children and did my best to raise them all. One chose drugs, stealing and lying at an early (13) age and I tried for years to stop it. I did what I could. It's time for him to heal himself. He's 21 and I can't fix him.
energy - pretty good all day. Got quite a bit done. Even dyed my hair, which it sorely needed. Normally I go for a darkish violet. This time I added some aqua bangs.
exercise - Got up early and went for what was supposed to be a 3 mile walk/run. I probably should NOT have had the milk right before going out. The sloshing in my tummy threw me off and I felt awful, so it was a 1 mile outing with some yoga afterwards.
I'm having zero cravings lately. I know I've mentioned that before, but it's just so exciting. I've always been one who has a hard time to resisting certain foods and I'm not feeling that at all right now! I've actually been thinking about what I am going to without so much milk every day. I'll still be drinking raw milk, but obviously not every meal. when I first started I wondered how people managed to do 30 day milk fasts. I have never found it easy, even with juice. Now I can see how easy it would be to do. I'm trying to pick out my first meal when I eat again. Leaning towards my fermented eggplant with tomato sauce and a salad. None of my tomatoes will be ready but I can get some from the Liberty Market this weekend. Or maybe I'll have black lentils and some fresh salsa. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm All I can say for sure right now is that it will be clean and not pesticide infused.